Today started off well enough...until I started running my fingers through my hair and big globs came out. I'm afraid I probably hurt Desi - she was asking about hair color and style (she's getting her hair done tonight) and I shot back with something like, "be grateful you have hair!" It was no sooner posted than I wished I could have taken it back. I wish and hope with all my heart that those around me will treat me no differently and include me in their conversations and then I do something like that! Ugh! My only defense is to say I'm trying to learn...but reality is I should have known. I'm so blessed with such wonderful kids and husband who are patient beyond belief!
Tonight I came upstairs and decided I was going to shave my head. I started and Rich finished. I've known since June that I had cancer - leiomyosarcoma - but tonight it feels real...more real than it has somehow. I wonder why? You would think it would with the biopsy, the scans, the dr. appts, the chemo - but somehow this is the thing that makes it real. Go figure!
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