"I Love You Forever and Ever, Amen!"

Intellectually I knew that when I had chemo that my hair would fall out.  It wasn't a foreign concept.  I've seen it before.  Processing it intellectually is different than processing it emotionally!  Trust me!  And while I know it is a trivial matter in comparison to the troubles of the world... it has rocked MY world somewhat.  I don't know if it is the cancer, the chemo, the hormones of my advanced age, or what...but several times I have found myself teary as I've tried to get used to my new look.  I know it takes the brain about three days to visually adjust to images...but somehow I don't think three days is going to cut it! Lol!  There is no way my hair is coming back that soon either.

So...I have had therapy sessions with my daughters off and on through the last few days and they have done their best to cheer and encourage me and give me ideas to make the most of my changing appearance.  Rich has listened and held me when I have felt uncertain and off kilter.  For the most part, I have taken it in stride...but there have been moments when it has seemed overwhelming and my very femininity has felt in doubt.  I've tried to explain to Rich that it's kind of like being full-term pregnant.  Intellectually you know you're female - after all no guy is going to be in that state!  However, there is no way you FEEL feminine!  You just feel like a house!  This is so similar!  Obviously I'm female...I just don't FEEL very feminine!  

Today, while I was studying my scriptures and Rich had gone to therapy I received a text from Rich.  It was so perfect I found myself in tears...the good kind😍!  It read, "Woman please follow this link.   https://youtu.be/sgJXbIP83A8 Know that I love you!"  Then, "I've been trying to tell you I'm in love with you not your hair Randy Tavis says it very good.  I love you forever and ever amen!"  How did I get so lucky?  How grateful I am for his love, support, understanding, kindness, gentleness, and respect.  He listens to me with his heart and while all my roller coaster emotions may be in overdrive sometimes, he doesn't discount them!  And when I least expect it, HE ROCKS MY WORLD IN THE VERY BEST WAY POSSIBLE!!! I love HIM forever and ever, Amen! ❤️💕😘😍❤️